My Journey Through Life..

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Passion vs Survival : Which One?

Hello, everyone!

Today’s topic is my thought about a great battle between something called Passion and Survival. This might not a big case for many people, but it sure is for my life. Regarding on my previous post (read here), which is about me aiming to be a professional on design / drawing field, I’ve found the core problem to this.

Right now, I am dealing with my (let’s call it) passion since I like love it and I want to make money from this. The bigger problem is, right now I can’t. I can’t make money from this and right now I only practice and draw almost everyday (except when I’m busy with other important things). I think, well, it might not be my time yet to be productive in this area, but sometimes I also think ‘Is this not my way?’. The later one is quite a shock for me if I think about it more. If it isn’t my way, then why the heck am I still doing this?


I know there is a possibility for that option, but I choose to fight more, practice more, draw more and planning to get better and excel in this. I have to think positively and hope that there will be a time that this is really my thing. However, facing that problem, there’s another question, ‘how am I gonna survive, at least for now?’. I can apply for a another kind of job in some companies (outside my passion, become a salaryman, for instance) and even though I’m hired, I might do well there (with jobs, colleagues, bosses, environment, etc). I’m pretty sure I can make decent money from that, though. What concern me most that is not what I really want to do.

Right now, I’m planning on getting a job in a company (it’s OK if it’s not what I really want), at least I can survive right now. Meanwhile, I’ll keep practicing to draw or make design as a side activities. I think it’s the best plan for now since I can’t make decent money by design or drawing, but I surely hope in the future, that dream can come true.

This is a sample of what I usually do but I made this about a year ago :


Simple Design of Traditional Hand-Axe

More in my Artstation and Patreo😀

So, what do you think is the best I should do right now? Comment down below if you have any constructive ideas.


*well, another short post, isn’t it? hahahaha*


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Self Promotion : Artstation & Patreon

Hello, it’s been a while since I posted something here. I know I want to be a culinary reviewer (mostly) but, you know, sometimes life doesn’t go that smooth, so I think I need to take a slight detour.

About a year ago, along with the time I started to blog, I also started to learn digital painting. Years before, back when I was in elementary school, I just love to draw (but only replicating animes or games). You can say it’s doodling. Then moving on to junior and senior high school, I didn’t draw anymore due to some school stuffs and I have no time even at night.

After graduating SHS, I was attending univ. Unfortunately, I didn’t take design or art as the department, instead I took IT (after I consulted with my parents). Yeah, that was like the biggest mistake in my life I think. During univ time, I always took my time to doodle, at least I think I have to doodle as often as possible to bring back what’s lost long time ago. I started to practice simple drawing and design, then the story began.

Four years of univ, I completed it with no problem. The problem is afterward. Now that I don’t have any interest in IT and move towards art and design path, I need to get a job. Up until the time I’m writing this blog entry, I couldn’t find one. I think I know why and it’s obvious, I don’t have proper education. I’m only a self taught ‘artist’ and ‘designer’ (well, I don’t think I’m suitable for those titles already, but at least I’m trying to be professional). So from 2015 until now, I’ve been learning, trying, practicing from any sources I can possibly find, specially in digital painting and design.

That’s why for now, I decided to take online freelance job (starting) and post my artworks (results of practice) online. I usually drop it off at deviantArt (which I don’t really use it anymore, but some of my histories are still there), Artstation (I mainly use to promote my artworks and show them to others in hope for getting criticisms or comments, but ‘likes’ are highly appreciated as well), and Patreon. Patreon is a crowdfunding website that usually people use it to get support in form of donation by giving something in return. This is what I’m trying to do, looking for some supports. I fully understand that my skill is sooooo inferior compared to some other talented and professional artists out there, but I’m carving my way to reach there. I want to be better and survive in this industry, and hopefully in the future, I can become an aid for many people who experience something similar to my case right now.

That’s why, with this post, I am (self)promoting my 2 accounts for my results in practice. Feel free to take a look my Artstation page, give thumbs up if you like it and give comment to give constructive criticism (I know at least there is one blogger who is an artist as well). Giving my Patreon some supports would be gladly and greatly appreciated. Links are below



And here’s my sample of artwork (I know I’m still at this level, but I WILL DEFINITELY LEVEL UP!)


The Flash (my all time favorite DC superhero)

That’s for today’s post, see you on the next ones (hopefully I can get a job, have some money and do some culinary posts again).

And I’m also selling some original merchandise at Redbubble
*Sorry, get to promote everything, but, yeah, my effort on living my dream may be starting from the very bottom*


*well, this post’s a short one isn’t it..?*